FictionAdvent 04: Snowglobe

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Note: I made a list of prompts, and wrote a bite-sized story for each one. They don’t live in the same universe, but they’re all a little off-kilter from what you might expect from holiday fare. And if you pay attention, you’ll notice that the last line of each story becomes the first line of the next. Also?  You can listen to these stories at my podcast website: BathtubMermaid.com.


She lets the silence fill her, vast and bright as home.

It’s the kind of quiet that only happens after heavy snowfall — thick, forgiving, a hush that smooths the sharp edges of everything. The colony sleeps beneath a quilt of white, soft light bleeding from the biothermal streetlamps. Above the dome, the auroras twist in ribbons of green and rose, reflected in the ice like the planet itself is dreaming.

She stands outside the comms station, chin tilted back, breath crystallizing in the air. Her boots leave careful tracks on the compacted path. The cold doesn’t bother her much anymore; after six years on Isolde Prime, her body has learned to move with the chill instead of against it. Still, she misses the sound of wind through trees — there are no trees here, only metal towers and frost.

The door slides open behind her. “You’re out here again.”

She doesn’t turn immediately. “You say that like I’m supposed to be somewhere else.”

He steps beside her, close enough that she can feel the faint warmth radiating from his coat. Dr. Elias Hart, exobiologist, reluctant optimist, hopeless romantic. His parka hood is lined with faux fur gone a little ragged at the edges, and his cheeks are red from the cold.

“You’re supposed to be asleep,” he says.

“So are you.”

“I was.” He smiles, slow and tired. “Then I dreamed about the first storm, and figured you’d be out here watching this one.”

She glances sideways. “You make that sound like a bad habit.”

“Depends on the company.”

The lights above them pulse, soft as breathing. She remembers that first storm — the fear of the power failing, the scramble to secure the greenhouse domes, the way they’d worked side by side in the cold until dawn. That was when it began, really: not the flirtation or the laughter, but the quiet respect that came from surviving something together.

“Do you think we’ll ever get used to it?” she asks. “The cold, the dark, the way it always feels like we’re living inside a snow globe?”

He follows her gaze toward the horizon, where the sun won’t rise for another twenty days. “Maybe that’s not the point,” he says. “Maybe we’re not supposed to get used to it. Maybe we’re supposed to keep being amazed.”

She snorts, but softly. “That’s the kind of thing you say before you go back to Earth and write a book.”

“I’m not going back.”

She turns toward him, really looks at him this time — the steady eyes, the unshaven jaw, the kind of man who plants roots even in permafrost.

“Elias—”

He reaches into his pocket and pulls out something small: a clear polymer sphere, snow swirling inside in tiny suspension. “The kids in the fabrication lab made these. Said they’re souvenirs for when we forget what the real thing looks like.”

She takes it, shaking it once. Flakes swirl like tiny ghosts, catching the lamplight. “You kept one?”

“I made one for you.”

Her breath catches — not from the cold this time. “You really are hopeless.”

“Hopelessly yours,” he says, grinning.

The silence between them is thick, but not empty. It’s the kind of silence that holds everything they haven’t said — the hours shared, the meals traded, the quiet in each other’s presence.

She leans in before she can second-guess it. The kiss is brief, but steady. His beard is cold, his lips warm, and the world seems to tilt slightly around them.

When they break apart, the snow begins again — soft flakes drifting down through the artificial atmosphere of the dome.

She tucks the snow globe into her coat pocket. “Merry Christmas, Elias.”

“Merry Christmas, Alina.”

The snow falls thicker now, wrapping the colony in white, and when he reaches for her hand, she doesn’t let go.

 

FictionAdvent 03: “Orbit”

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Note: I made a list of prompts, and wrote a bite-sized story for each one. They don’t live in the same universe, but they’re all a little off-kilter from what you might expect from holiday fare. And if you pay attention, you’ll notice that the last line of each story becomes the first line of the next. Also?  You can listen to these stories at my podcast website: BathtubMermaid.com.


For once, she feels perfectly in time.

The station hums around her — quiet but alive, a cathedral of carbon fiber and light. Out the viewport, Earth drifts beneath her like a blue lantern, its cloud swirls gleaming silver against the dark. The orbit is stable again. The instruments whisper compliance.

For the first time in seventy-three days, she’s not fighting the drift.

She floats closer to the window, gloved hand brushing against the glass as if she could touch the horizon. On the far side of the planet, dawn unspools in a line of molten gold. The sun flares, and the panels outside catch it, flooding the cabin with soft radiance.

It feels like Christmas morning — though by the mission clock, it might not even be December anymore. Up here, dates blur. There’s only light and shadow, work and rest, silence and the steady rhythm of her own pulse.

She checks the comms again. Static. Then, faintly, a voice.

“Jemison, this is Houston. Do you copy?”

Her breath catches. “Copy, Houston,” she replies, the words a little too fast. “Jemison reads you five by five.”

“Good to hear your voice again, Commander.”

It’s a new voice, one she doesn’t recognize — calm, low, threaded with warmth. A voice that sounds like gravity.

“Telemetry shows you’re back in sync,” he continues. “Your orbit stabilized two cycles ago.”

“I know,” she says softly. “I felt it.”

There’s a pause on the line — not static, but surprise. Then a chuckle. “You felt orbital correction?”

“I’ve been up here long enough to tell when the universe exhales.”

She hears him smile through the static. “Roger that.”

They run through diagnostics together, the familiar ritual of systems checks and data verification. His cadence is steady, soothing, a rhythm to anchor herself to. She imagines him on the ground — headset askew, coffee cooling beside his keyboard, eyes turned skyward.

When the checklist is complete, he says, “You’ll have sunrise in about ninety seconds. You should see the aurora from your position.”

“I see it already,” she whispers.

Below her, ribbons of green and violet curl across the poles, shimmering like breath against the night. It’s not the first aurora she’s seen from orbit, but this one feels different — brighter, alive. She thinks of the Christmas lights her father used to hang along the eaves of their house, blinking patterns that never quite synced. He’d laugh every year and say, “Perfection’s overrated, sweetheart. Just make it shine.”

And she had.

Now, decades later, she’s circling the planet he left behind, bathed in the glow of a light show that no human hands arranged.

“Houston,” she says, “if you’re getting video, you’ll want to see this.”

“I am,” he answers. “Beautiful, isn’t it?”

She could tell him yes, but it feels too small a word. Instead, she just listens — to the hum of the ship, to his breathing on the line, to the faint crackle of cosmic radiation singing between them.

“I think,” she says slowly, “that for the first time in a long time, I know what it means to be home.”

“Copy that, Commander.” His voice softens. “Merry Christmas, up there.”

Her throat tightens. “Merry Christmas, down there.”

Outside the window, the aurora shimmers brighter, wrapping the curve of the world in living green fire. The station drifts steady through the dark, and she lets the silence fill her, vast and bright as home.

 

 

 

FictionAdvent 02: “Hearth”

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Note: I made a list of prompts, and wrote a bite-sized story for each one. They don’t live in the same universe, but they’re all a little off-kilter from what you might expect from holiday fare. And if you pay attention, you’ll notice that the last line of each story becomes the first line of the next. Also?  You can listen to these stories at my podcast website: BathtubMermaid.com.


Outside, the church bells strike midnight — exactly on time.

Inside the café, the world softens around the edges. The espresso machine has gone quiet, its metal belly releasing one last sigh of steam. She wipes down the counter in slow, practiced circles. When she finishes, she pours herself a small mug from what remains in the pot — lukewarm, but still comforting — and brings it with her as she turns.

He’s still there.

Coat folded over the back of his chair, the sleeves of his blazer worn thin at the elbows, chalk dust or flour or some other pale powder clinging to the cuffs. His notebook lies open beside a half-finished cappuccino, the foam long since collapsed into faint rings. He looks up at the shift of movement — or perhaps at the weight of her gaze — and starts to gather his things in a gentle, apologetic flurry.

“You don’t have to rush,” she says. “I’m closing, but not throwing anyone out.”

He pauses, half-smiling, half-wincing.
“I wouldn’t want to keep you.”

“You’re not,” she replies, sipping from her mug. “You’re keeping the place company.”

The remark earns her a small smile — not quite shy, not quite confident, but warmer than the room had been a moment before. She walks to the back table and pulls the chessboard from the small bookshelf beside it.

“Stay,” she says, setting it down. “One game. I’ll even let you go first.”

He hesitates in the doorway between leaving and lingering — then rises, stretches, and joins her.

“I should warn you,” he says as he sits, “I tend to overthink my openings.”

“I work with caffeine for a living,” she replies. “Patience is a professional hazard.”

They begin in a hush broken only by the soft click of pieces meeting the board. She likes the way he studies the positions — eyes narrowed, mouth slightly open, as if listening for the logic rather than calculating it. She suspects he used to play piano, or perhaps still does.

Between moves, conversation emerges naturally: literature, mathematics, the best temperature for steaming milk, the yearly misery of daylight savings. He admits he always means to grade papers earlier, but ends up wandering the neighborhood instead — the mind needing air. She tells him she once majored in theatre before life demanded something steadier.

“Do you miss it?” he asks.

“Performing? Sometimes,” she says. “But a café’s not so different from a stage. There’s an audience. A rhythm. A script you can rewrite on the fly.”

“And what am I?” he asks, head tilted. “The critic?”

She shakes her head. “The recurring character.”

That earns her a fuller smile, bright enough to reveal the faint crease at the corner of his mouth.

When she finally checkmates him, he laughs softly, running a hand through his hair. “I teach logic, and yet…”

“Emotion trumps logic more often than not,” she says, beginning to gather the pieces.

But he reaches out — a light touch, just two fingers resting over her hand — and asks, “Another round?”

Her pulse flickers. “If I say yes, I’ll have to brew another pot.”

“Then yes,” he repeats.

Outside, snow begins to fall: hesitant flakes drifting past the windows, melting as soon as they touch the pavement. Inside, the air smells of cinnamon, espresso, and something newly awake.

Hours slip by unnoticed.
They play until the clock over the door insists it’s past two.

He helps her stack the chairs, fold the cloths, and set the alarm. At the door he lingers, breath blooming white in the cold.

“Same time next week?”

She nods, fingers tucked into her sleeves. “Bring your overthinking.”

He inclines his head, that amused glint returning. “And you bring the patience.”

The door closes behind him with a soft chime. She watches him retreat into the snow, coat collar turned up, shoulders curved like a thoughtful question. After a moment, she locks up, turns off the lights, and stands in the quiet warmth he’s left behind — a small ember glowing gently in the bones of the room.

When she finally steps outside, the bells begin again, slow and solemn. Midnight, or maybe something older.

And for once, she feels perfectly in time.

 

 

FictionAdvent 01: “Clock:”

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Note: I made a list of prompts, and wrote a bite-sized story for each one. They don’t live in the same universe, but they’re all a little off-kilter from what you might expect from holiday fare. And if you pay attention, you’ll notice that the last line of each story becomes the first line of the next. Also?  You can listen to these stories at my podcast website: BathtubMermaid.com.


They think she’s never on time.

Every year, someone laughs about it — her sister, a coworker, the neighbor who still calls her “kiddo” though she’s past forty.

“You’d be late to your own funeral,” they tease, and she smiles and shrugs and lets them believe it. Every Christmas, every birthday, there’s another clock: elegant wall pendulums, modern minimalist cubes, one shaped like a cat with eyes that swing in time with its tail. Her house ticks like a forest of mechanical crickets.

She doesn’t mind. The noise anchors her, reminds her where she is.

But they’re wrong, of course. She isn’t late — she just doesn’t stay in one version of now.

Time, for her, is elastic. Sometimes it stretches, gossamer-thin, like taffy pulled too far, and she can walk its length to touch the moment when her mother bent to kiss her scraped knee, or the instant she first realized she’d fallen in love. Other times it snaps tight and whips her forward, years ahead, where she sees a conversation that hasn’t happened yet, the face of a friend she hasn’t met.

When she was small, she thought everyone did this. She’d speak of something that “will have happened” next week and be scolded for talking nonsense. Eventually, she learned to keep quiet, to live as linearly as others expected — or at least to pretend.

The clocks help. They keep her tethered to their rhythm. But even that tether frays.

Last spring, she found herself walking home at dusk and stepped — only for an instant — into another version of the same street, where the houses were younger, trees sapling-thin, the air thick with the tang of woodsmoke. A child ran past her, laughing, and she caught a flash of her own face, eight years old and free of all the later weight. Then she blinked, and the world reset: streetlights humming, a grocery bag in her hand, the modern night reasserted.

She wonders sometimes what would happen if she stopped fighting it. If she let herself drift fully backward or forward and stayed. The idea tempts her — not escape, exactly, but alignment. She suspects Time wouldn’t mind the company.

Tonight, on Christmas Eve, her house is full of ticking. Every gift clock is wound and running, marking hours she doesn’t quite inhabit. She pours tea, sits among them, and feels the familiar shimmer begin — that soft stretch, the hum of a thousand parallel seconds brushing past.

One by one, the clocks fall silent. Not broken — merely pausing. In the hush, she hears it: the heartbeat beneath everything, the pulse of the world breathing.

She closes her eyes and lets go.

For a moment, she is everywhere — childhood, tomorrow, yesterday’s snowfall, next summer’s rain. She stands at the center of it all, a still point in a turning sphere, and Time — ancient, patient, amused — wraps her in its arms.

“You were never late,” it whispers. “You were simply elsewhere.”

When she opens her eyes, the clocks resume their ticking, each one perfectly synchronized.

And outside, the church bells strike midnight — exactly on time.

Icarus, Descending

a companion piece to “Daedalus, Diminished”

Icarus

The wax sticks to my fingers. Feathers shake when I breathe.

Father warned me. Not too high. Not too low. Balance. Core. Moderation.

But wings are not for moderation.

The wind tears at me, hot and cold all at once. My chest splits wide, ribs straining with too much air. It hurts. It’s joy. It’s both.

The gulls wheel beside me, screaming. Their wings are meant for this. Mine are borrowed. Stolen.

I laugh anyway.

The sun is close enough to taste. Honey. Fire. Blood. My lips crack with it.

Wax runs down my arms. The first feather drops. Then another. White spirals against blue.

I spread my arms wider.

The frame shudders. The cords snap. My wings are breaking. I am breaking.

Still I laugh. Still I burn.

The sea lifts its black mouth to meet me. Salt on my tongue, spray in my eyes.

I do not close them.

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Sacrificial

The tree stood in the living room, centered in the arch of the window, its branches unadorned – naked. Despite being both artificial and pre-lit it had been there for several days because Ellie insisted that even plastic trees had to acclimate before they could be decorated.

Cardinal Ornament

Several RubberMaid totes, their purple hue faded to lavender by time and dust, sat open on the floor, each filled with crumpled tissue in a variety of colors. The same tissue was re-used every year, until it was so tattered and thin that it had to be replaced. The ornaments – mostly glass, but some wood, some tin, and a few made of seashells – once cradled within were scattered haphazardly on the coffee table, two snack trays, and an end table that had seen better days.

For Ellie, decorating the tree had always been her favorite part of the season, as if a piece of holiday magic entered the room with every bauble placed on a waiting bough until – finally – the angel was placed on top, and Christmas arrived in full force.

This year, however, something was different. The air felt heavier, almost as if the house itself were holding its breath. The dogs seemed to sense it too. Mumble had been pacing anxiously all day, and Pork Chop hadn’t even barked at the mailman once.

“Are you ready to start?” Max asked, coming into the room, and causing his wife to jump.

“You scared me!” Ellie said. “And yes… I am.”

“Great!” Max picked up a small yellow ornament – a glass version of a rubber duck. “This guy looks like he wants to be first.”

“Wait!”  Ellie’s cry made her husband freeze in place. “Don’t forget the sacrifice.”

It was the phrase she’d heard every year from her mother, growing up, and from her grandmother as well. “It’s part of the tradition,” the older woman had reminded them every year, her voice quivering. But in all the years those words had been spoken, often during late-night conversations she hadn’t been meant to overhear, Ellie had never known what they meant.

Tonight, Ellie felt the weight of family history. Every year, one ornament had to break. Not intentionally but also not by accident. Well, not exactly.

“What do you mean ‘sacrifice?’” Max asked. He wasn’t usually part of the decorating process from the beginning. Instead, it was up to Ellie and her mother, and he’d come later and do the top section where they couldn’t reach. But Ellie’s mother wasn’t with them anymore, and she’d insisted that she couldn’t – didn’t want to – decorate the tree alone.

“Mom told me once that it’s for the tree. To make the magic work.”  Ellie frowned as she said it. The notion was absurd. Still, she couldn’t shake the feeling that her mother might have been right. She looked at the tree: it seemed to loom larger than its actual size, the dark green needles casting shadows that looked like clutching fingers on all the walls of the room.

Fighting a shiver, Ellie told their smart speaker to play Christmas music, and she and Max sang along to Bing, Johnny, Burl, and Nat as they began to decorate.

Carefully, they began placing the ornaments on the branches. Ellie’s hands trembled as she hung a shimmering snowflake as high as she could manage. Every brush of her sleeve against the needles or clink of glass as the ornaments touched made her flinch.

As the hours passed, the tree grew more beautiful, but the weight in the air grew heavier, pressing down on Ellie’s chest.

“Is it time?” Max asked as they neared the end of their task.

The remaining ornaments were among the oldest in their collection, things that Ellie’s mother had bought for her when she was still a baby. This one was from her very first Christmas, and that one was from the year Max proposed. How could she choose one to be destroyed?

The answer came not from her, but from the tree itself. A low creak echoed through the room, the sound of the center pole groaning under an unseen weight. The branches trembled, shaking the ornaments as if impatient.

“I guess it’s now,” Ellie said.

She picked up an old glass cardinal with a chipped tail feather. She held it tightly, her hands cold even though the room was warm. Cardinals had been her grandmother’s favorite bird. Standing in front of the tree she reached to slip the gold thread around the branch, but the second she let go, it came loose.

It fell in slow motion, spinning as it descended toward the tile floor. When it landed, the sound was sharper than Ellie expected, the shattering glass echoing like a gunshot.

The music stopped. The room fell silent. The shadows around the tree seemed to shift, retreating as though satisfied. The air grew lighter, the oppressive weight dissipating until Ellie was breathing freely once more. Staring down at the tiny pieces of red glass, she whispered, “It’s done.”

Max restarted the music and went to get the broom. The dogs sniffed the air, then jumped onto the couch, settling into opposing corners.

And the tree? It seemed to hum with approval, its lights glowing brighter. Ellie even thought she detected faint movement from the branches… a bow of gratitude, almost.

Later that night, as she and Max sipped spiked eggnog in the darkened living room with only the tree lights for illumination, it occurred to Ellie that the broken ornament had meant more than just a ritual sacrifice. It was a sort of a pact. The tree would retain Christmas magic until the dawn of New Year’s Day, when the ornaments would be removed.

Still, she had to wonder: what would happen if the tree ever went without?

 

 

Special thanks to Kymm and Francesca for naming the dogs.

An Excerpt from “A MerChild’s Christmas with Whales”

Merchild Christmas with Whales

There are always Aunties in the Mermaid Coves. The same Aunties. And on solstice mornings, with landwalker-entrancing song and candy darters, they would send me out to play and I would glide through the swaying kelp searching for news of the Seven Seas, and always find a barnacle-crusted whale by the deep trench or perhaps a clownfish with its colors dimmed by the colder water.

Merfolk and sea-creatures would be swooping and diving, riding the current with bubble-blown sighs and salt-scrubbed faces, all shimmering pale, their flicking fins and glinting scales catching the reflection of the sun against the careless tides.

Fronds of seaweed and clusters of anemones were draped over the branching coral in all the grottos; there were jugs of briny nectar, and succulent shellfish, and too many varieties of plankton and cheesefish and shellcrackers. Crabs in their crusty coats skittered near the phosphorescent rocks and the bioluminescence lit the caverns, making them ready for tales and shanties galore.

Some few large mermen sat on carved couches without their ceremonial sashes, Uncles all of them, trying their new conch pipes – holding them at arm’s length then returning them to their lips, blowing mournful tones like muted foghorns then holding them out again as though waiting for a whalesong reply.

And those loving Aunties, not needed to tend the cauldrons of fish stew (or for anything else, really) perch on the edges of their limestone chairs, poised but fierce, ready to crack shell and splash tail, but also on guard for the impending arrival of Sandy Klaws.

With apologies to Dylan Thomas.

Whatever It Is That You Think You Remember

Think You Remember

Memory is fallible. You tend to treat it like it’s not, but you’re wrong. It’s pliable, suggestable, sometimes even amorphous. What really happens and what you remember happening – those are often completely separate things.

Here’s an example:

You wake up covered in blood and assume you got into a fight the night before, but your mind is blank, and when you turn the phone camera to see your face, there’s no sign of bruising. Even your knuckles are pain-free. But there’s blood flowing from your neck. Weird.

You close your eyes, try to think. Where were you last night? You swallow, and your saliva tastes like old blood and stale beer. Gross! But then you recall…

You were at a bar. You met a woman. She had blonde hair. She looked vaguely familiar, but you couldn’t place her, until…

“Paul? Oh my god, how are you?” Her enthusiastic greeting was met by your blank stare.

“Do I… know you?”

“I’m Sam’s sister,” she said. “Don’t you remember? I used to try to tag along whenever you and Sam went to the movies.”

Sam was a friend from childhood. Every Saturday, they’d ride their bikes to the dollar theatre to see second-run movies and gorge themselves on junk food. But he didn’t remember a sister, until…

“I had a pink bike with streamers.” The woman – Sam’s sister – was still talking. “With this really tinny bell and you guys hated it. You told me I could come to the movies if I kept up, but…”

“… but you never did.” The memory was there as if it had been implanted. “We’d kill ourselves trying to outrace you, and you almost caught up once.” You paused. “Your hair was darker then, wasn’t it.”

“So, you do remember me!”

“Sure,” you say. And you realize that an age gap of three years when she was nine and you were twelve was an unbridgeable chasm, but now that you’re thirty-one, a three-year difference is nothing. “Can I buy you a drink?” you offer.

“Do you buy drinks for a lot of women?”

“Hardly ever,” you say. “But you’re Sam’s sister.”

You spent the night drinking and telling stories about Sam. “I haven’t seen him in years,” you said, trying to recall the last time you even called him. “He moved around a lot. He’s somewhere back east, isn’t he? New York? Or…?”

“Pennsylvania,” she answered. And you nod. Because you’re suddenly quite certain there’s a postcard of Liberty Hall on your fridge with Sam’s newest address.

The evening flew by. The drinks flew faster. You aren’t typically the kind who drinks to get drunk, but somehow you’d stopped keeping track. You were surprised when the bartender announced the last call.

“I should go,” you told her, “Can I give you a lift somewhere?”

“I’m good,” she said. But when you stumble at the curb, she pulled the keys from your hand. “I guess I’m giving you a lift. Where do you live?”

You don’t recall the drive. You can’t remember how she got you up the stairs to your apartment. But you remember her voice in your ear. “Invite me in,” she’d said, a faint rasp coloring her tone. Had that been there before?

The hazy image of undressing comes back to you. Your skin was hot and hers was cool. You kept reaching for the light switches, and she kept preventing it. “Darkness is better,” she said.

You remember her pushing you backwards onto your bed, and you feel the echo of her weight on top of you. You reached for her face, to pull her closer for a kiss, but she dodged and got your neck.

(Your neck where the blood is coming from.)

“She bit me,” you remember with a start. “Holy fuck, she was a vampire.” You say the words out loud even though your apartment is empty. “Wait, that’s not even possible.”

You have a sudden urge to call your friend Sam and ask him if he knew his sister was a vampire.

Except… you’re pretty certain Sam never had a sister, that the girl with the pink bike was some other kid on your street, that there was no postcard from Pennsylvania stuck to your fridge with a Domino’s Pizza magnet.

Your phone chirps. An incoming text from an unknown number. A single word. “Forget.”

You move to the bathroom and start the shower. By the time your hot piss hits the cold water of the toilet, you only remember that you met a woman in a bar and had some drinks.

By the time you emerge from the shower, all traces of blood down the drain, you’ll be absolutely sure that you cut your neck shaving.

 

“Do you swear to tell the truth, the whole truth, or whatever it is that you think you remember?” –  Elizabeth Loftus

 

 

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Tlanchana

la_tlanchana_by_andro_san12_df23o87-414w-2xThe Mother of Water has many moods and many forms.

When she is sad or angry, her tears fill the basin of the lake near our home, and the power of her emotion fuels wicked storms. The fishermen and sailors beg her for mercy, but she is the snake mother then, and she whips her tail in agitation. The men know to remain ashore and use the time to sit near the fire repairing their nets or stitching new sails.

They tell stories of my mother’s worst tantrums, but their voices are full of respect in equal measures as the fear.

“I remember,” the oldest man says, “that when conquerors tried to cross the lake and take our village, the Water-Mother used her snake tail to whip their weapons from their hands and push their ships back with her well-placed waves.”

When my mother is feeling happy, the skies reflect the bright blue of her eyes, and the waters in the lake are calm. She takes a fish-tail then, swimming alongside the fishing boats and guiding them toward the best catch.

She likes to play with the children on these days, and while I was not the first or the last to wrap my young arms around her neck and let her carry me over and under the surface, coming up for air always at the exact right moment, I am the one who is never afraid.

“The Water-Mother is our protector,” the other mothers tell their children. “And it is an honor to be invited to swim with her.”

Sometimes, though, the Mother of Water must take human form, trading tail for legs, and walking on the land. She did this once to find a mate, and that’s how I was made, but she also comes to shore whenever one of the elders passes out of this life.

In those times her tears are salty, and she cries them over the graves of those who have left. She wraps her silky hair around herself like a cloak and keeps vigil over the bones of the dead.

The old grannies cook for her at those times and leave pots of food and jugs of water to sustain her while she sits in silence. She might sit for two nights or five, or even seven, but when she leaves, it always seems she takes our collective grief away with her.

“Death is part of life,” she reminds us, as she returns to the lake.

Unlike the other girls in our village, the Mother of Water is also my mother of blood. When I am older, she tells me in her voice that ripples like a stream, I will learn to shift my form, to take on the snake tail when I must be fierce and the fish tail when I am being playful, and legs when I am ready for love.

Sometimes she visits in her human form, just to spend time with us.

“Did you love my father?” I ask her.

“I did,” she says. “I do,” she adds.

And she walks on legs into the candlelit depths of our house and shares her joy with the man who raises me. When she departs after those times, her eyes are dry, but my father’s face is wet with tears, and so is mine.

The Mother of Water has many moods and many forms, but in every one, she protects those of us she calls her own.

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The Warehouse of Lost Dreams

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“So, it’s your first night at the warehouse, huh, kid?” The paunchy older man with the graying whiskers and faded denim overalls asked. His tone was conversational. His smile was sincere. “Lemme guess… you’re putting yourself through college?”

“I am,” I said. My own coveralls were new, the indigo still deep and dark, with creases from where they’d been folded in the package. With self-deprecating humor, I said, “I’m on the six-year plan.”

“Better six years than no years,” my mentor said. “I’m Maury; lemme show you around.”

“Sure,” I said.

“As a custodian you need to know the sorting policy. Here, on the first aisle are the Childhood Fantasies… things kids grow out of before they turn ten.”

“Like being an astronaut?”

“More like being a spaceship captain, although we still get a lot of firefighters, lion tamers, and superheroes.” Maury shakes his head. “Some of those are messy – the kids who tried flying before they gave up on the idea… their bodies usually didn’t suffer much, but those dreams literally went splat! That’s why we cover up.”

“I was wondering,” I said. “What’s next?”

“Well, this next section, it’s the dreams that are set aside when we’re coming of age.” He reaches into a bin and retrieves a handful of pointe shoes, dangling from faded pink ribbons. “Lots of ballerinas in this section, and tap dancers, but also baseball and soccer players. These are the sports and arts that kids give up when they head off to college.”

“Because their tastes change?” I ask.

“Some of them.” Maury returns the ballet shoes to the bin, picks up a soccer ball and bins it, and then moves a unicycle into a bike rack. “Others… they just didn’t have time, or they couldn’t afford to keep up after high school.” He stops, turns to face me, and stares for a long moment. “Your clarinet is three over, fourth shelf,” he says.

“How did you know about that?”

Maury favors me with a sympathetic smile. “You work here long enough, and you start to pick up on things.”

“How long have you been working here?” I ask.

“A long time,” he answers vaguely.

I follow him up and down a few more aisles until we reach a bin of hard hats. “Put this on,” he says, handing me a yellow one. He places an orange one over his buzz-cut hair. “This section can be dangerous.”

We enter a warehouse aisle that has bits of things – dolls, china, musical instruments, paint brushes, running shoes… riding saddles and medical texts.

“Broken dreams?” I guess aloud.

“Yup,” Maury answers. “Next aisle isn’t dangerous, but it might make you a little sad…”

“Oh?”

But he doesn’t need to explain. One side of the aisle is bins full of college sweatshirts and corporate IDs. I gulp, knowing that if I’m not careful my own future could end up folded and graying here. The other side of the aisle, though, is different. Smaller bins. Engagement rings. Wedding bands. Baby shoes.

“Oh,” I manage to say, since Maury seems to expect a reaction of some kind. “Oh.”

“Yeah,” he answers, as if we’ve just had a profound conversation. And maybe we have. It just didn’t involve a ton of words. “C’mon.”

More rows, some are things I recognize, some are poorly lit, and the shapes are abstract and indistinct. But there’s a warm light emanating from the very furthest aisle, and here’s where we find rows of easels, fishing poles, knitting supplies, baking equipment.

“This stuff doesn’t seem like it’s lost or broken,” I say.

“No. This… this is where I come when the rest of it gets too much. This is the place where later-in-life dreams are protected until they’re ready to be used. Most of these dreamers are grandparents, and they’re either planning retirement activities or embracing hobbies to share with their grandchildren.

“Oh… wow.”

“It’s not good to linger too long,” Maury says quietly. “Maybe I’ve come here too many times.” He picks up one of the fishing poles. “Work hard, while you’re here, kid,” he says. I notice that his hard hat is now a canvas one with fishing lures attached to it. Like that guy from the TV show M*A*S*H.

“I don’t understand,” I say.

“Don’t let go of your dream,” he continues. “Six years, even seven, you finish college.”

“I won’t,” I say. “I mean, I will. I’ll finish.”

Maury turns away from me and walks down toward the brightest part of the light. I take two steps to follow him, but then there’s a loud alarm from somewhere above me, and a computer voice announces “Incoming shipment. Custodian, please report to the loading dock.”

I turn toward the place where I came in, which is suddenly only a few feet from me, instead of rows and rows away. It’s my first night at the Warehouse of Lost Dreams, but it won’t be my last.

Art credit: Max Steksov