That Christmas Queasy Feeling

Many people who've been reading my blog, or my OD or LJ posts, know I've been complaining about the following symptoms since the last week of November:

queasiness, esp. first thing in the morning & last at night
bouts of dizzyness and lightheadedness
unusual tiredness
a sudden inability to tolerate COFFEE or dairy
feeling mildly crampy

What I've only shared with a few folks, is that I'm also late in that distinctly female sense of the word. And I'm not talking a few days. I'm talking, my last visit from that little friend was 10/23.

So, considering the symptoms listed above, and other stuff, which I'm not listing here, our thought was, “Well, maybe I'm pregnant.” So we did tests. Three stick tests over the time period from 12/02 – 12/08 were all negative. I forced Kaiser into giving me an appoinment with my ob/gyn (an adorable old Egyptian guy who made sure all the instruments were warm, and chatted about gardening to put me at ease), and the results of that were “you look perfectly healthy”.

He gave me three choices:
1) Take progesterone to induce that montly visitor
2) Do nothing
3) Wait & see

We did the blood test. It, too was negative.
So for the moment we're back to “wait and see” and I'm trying to book an appointment with my GP because I just…I feel like there's SOMETHING going on. I mean, I live in my body every day, I know when things feel different.

In the meantime, that blood test was a week ago, and still no change in anything.

So, why am I sharing this complete lack of news? Because I need to feel like I'm not crazy, I guess. (Yeah, blatant sympathy plea), and because I've been so distracted, distant, and flakey lately, that I wanted to make just one explanation about WHY.

So, back to your normal days now.
Thanks for listening.

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I'm working on a new project. I bought this book called A Christmas Conversation Piece – it's a book of holiday-related conversation prompts, and starting sometime today, I'll be posting them, and using them as essay fodder. Anyone who wants to play along with me, is welcome, indeed ENCOURAGED to do so. Link will be posted later.

This paragraph cross-posted to Uber-Caffeinated

I'm trying to convince Fuzzy that I NEED the Hogwarts Express train set to put around our Christmas tree.

Wish me luck.

Okay, so it's not a windmill, but when you're five feet tall a seven-foot plastic Christmas tree can be just as daunting as one of Cervantes' evil wind-machines.

Translation: I feel yucky, so I'm going to slay the yuckiness by putting the ornaments on the tree, now that I've lived with it, just lit, for almost a week.

I had thought to invite folks over for help, but it's such a full week next week and I've been so tired/queasy/strange-feeling, that I just want a weekend of quiet and reflection.

I hope everyone else's weekend goes well.

(P.S. Hey, , I've joined your mood posse for this one. But I still think “prickly” should be one of their options.)

I saw this first at either or 's LJ, but I'm actually taking it from .

It should not be assumed that items are listed in order of rank.

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
1. Parents who don't discipline their children.
2. That whole 10 hotdogs/eight buns thing.
3. The appeal of “reality” television.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. Lime green polyester.
2. The erosion of civil rights.
3. Spiders.

THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
1. To speak French, fluently.
2. Same for Italian.
3. To draw.

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. My Fossil Kaleidoscope watch.
2. A very comfy new bra (striped, red/black/grey/white)
3. Really old Ryka sneakers, partly chewed by Cleo.

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK (table)
1. Coffee mug of pens.
2. Metal cellist sculpture.
3. VSD “still the prettiest” coffee mug.

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. Publish a novel or a regular column.
2. Design a line of comfortable career clothing for geek women.
3. Become independantly wealthy.

THREE GOOD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1. I'm (relatively) calm, most of the time.
2. I'm honest.
3. I'm witty.

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1. I'm mercurial.
2. I tend to babble.
3. I'm impatient.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. Italian
2. German
3. Susan

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. Eyes
2. Hair
3. Feet

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. Teeth
2. Height
3. Hands

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME (until now)
1. I love model trains.
2. After a lifetime of being mainly agnostic, I'm starting to explore religion/faith/spirituality.
3. I whistle when I'm happy.

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. “Apparently…”
2. “Hello?”
3. “No, Mom, you do not have the plague.”

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
1. Marseilles
2. Finland
3. An Alaskan cruise.

I first heard about it one morning in Starbucks. The woman ahead of me in line was talking with the baristas as she waited for her nonfat latte, and mentioned that she'd found a great source for hard-to-please or already-has-everything family members. “It's very cool,” she told us. “It's this website where you can donate a cow in someone else's name.”

The website is Alternative Gifts International and while you can't really (at least in this year's catalogue) buy a cow, you can donate money to be used for a pig or an ox (for a family in Uganda) or a day of tutoring (for a child in LA) or textbooks for kids in Haiti, or water purification equipment for folks in Tanzania.

I'm all for donating to worthy causes, and pleasing people at the same time, and while I won't necessarily do any giftgiving from AGI this year, I'm intrigued enough to post about it, thus creating an instant reminder.

Cross-posted to Pensieri Casuali