I say… And you think…?

1. Pistol:: whip
2. Rick:: Springfield
3. Full circle:: rewind
4. I wish:: More than anything, more than life…
5. Frame:: relay
6. Adult:: content
7. Photography:: exhibition
8. Stew:: beef
9. Cheat:: test
10. Brad:: brass

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We’ve been keeping really bad hours lately, and bedtime has been inching later and later until, for the last three or four days, it’s been around four AM. Now, neither of us keeps a nine-five schedule, but it’s still not exactly healthy to go to bed at dawn, and sleep til nine (Fuzzy), or eleven (me – I can’t function on less than seven hours).

But one good thing has come of it…I’ve been listening to the BBC World Service overnight on the local NPR station, and just before 4 AM, they’ve been playing a spot that seems to be someone reading aloud an excerpt from a book. I say ‘seems to be’ because I never manage to be awake enough, or coherent enough, to hear the name of the speaker or the title of the work, I merely sense the change in tone and rhythm, and hear snippets of things that simply aren’t news soundbites.

It’s weird. I don’t like audiobooks – they go too slowly for me, and I zone out – yet, when the reader is good I like being read to. That started, I think, with my mother, reading Winnie the Pooh to me when I was very little, and doing all the voices, and then later, we followed the same chapter-a-night sequence with Little Women. By then I was six or seven, long since able to read myself, and it was the last book we read together, because I began to get impatient – a chapter a night takes an hour when someone’s reading it to you, but if you read in bed, to yourself, you can get through many many chapters.

Our version of reading together changed at that point – instead of my mother reading to me, we’d share books, and talk about them. But one summer, when I was about ten, my mother checked a book out of the library, a book that I now know is a compilation of the garden columns by Katherine White, and for a blissful few months, we read it aloud to each other.

Later, when I was fourteen, and in my first year of high school, I became addicted to KPFA’s Evening Reading series, which featured a whole series of novels, classic and less so, read aloud, a few chapters at a time. I remember that the person who was reading a Jack London piece (I can’t recall now, if it was White Fang or The Call of the Wild) had the richest, warmest voice…cultivated without being phoney, with a hint of a Boston accent, but only a hint. I have no idea who he was – some actor, I suppose – but I was, and am, in love with that voice.

I used to lie there at night, listening to the radio in my darkened room, trying so hard to stay awake for the end of the section, and mostly failing, just as I had always failed when my mother read to me, when I was a young child.

I lie in bed the same way now, listening to the authors on the BBC, and trying to stay awake to hear the credits – who are they? What are they reading?

But I never do. And I’m left to wonder, because, somehow, I never think to google the show.

And when Fuzzy creeps into bed, a bit after the show has ended, I always grumble that his first move is to turn off the radio.

I know we’re almost half-way through January, and that resolution posts are completely dated already, and I also know that I already addressed the issue of resolutions on December 30th, but last night while I was surfing through my blogroll, and I came upon something so cool that I had to share it.

Here’s the whole story. First, I visited a blog by a woman named Liz, which referenced a post by Dance as if Nobody’s Looking, who, incidentally, made some very valid points about the fact that important local charities are having their funding affected because so many individuals are giving to the tsunami victims. (Not to slight them, of course, but…)

Anyway, her blog referred people to Superhero Journal. This blogger is a woman who just totally gets it.

First, she understands that resolutions shouldn’t be about negativity, but that they should inspire us to better ourselves. And second, she talks about the Mondo Beyondo.

In her words:
[The Mondo Beyondo] is the list of things that are outrageous, wild, and may not even happen for 5 or 10 years from now. This is the list of things that are SO JUICY and unlikely to happen that you are afraid to even write them down. This might be the most important list of all!

She talks about something I’ve always known, and never paid much attention to – that the act of putting something in print is a sort of declaration that you believe it WILL happen, someday. It’s a committment, deep in the heart of yourself. An act of faith.

And I think that’s just cool.

As for MY Mondo Beyondo list? Here’s the beginning:
– I will write for a living.
– I will have a child.
– I will become fluent in French and Italian.
– I will overcome my shyness.

For this month’s Blogging for Books choose which genre of fiction best represents your life – whether it be literary, mystery, romance, horror, sci-fi, fantasy, magical realism, etc. – and write a fictionalized account of some incident in your life based in that genre.

It was when they reached Needles that they realized there was no going back, that this wasn’t just a weekend excursion. They stopped at the local Dairy Queen at ten in the morning, to fill gas, to make sure they had water, to let the dogs do their business, to get an ice cream. She was wearing a peach tank top over a sage green one, and khaki shorts, and she stood in the slight shade made from the awning, licking her cone.

The summer heat, even that early in the morning, made the ice cream melt faster than she could eat it, and he watched her, standing there, her hair pulled back in a loose ponytail, then wrapped into a bun and pinned at her neck – she’d forgotten that all her hair sticks were packed, he recalled, and had used an unsharpened pencil snagged from the hotel. He watched as the ice cream melted, and a drop landed on the suntanned skin of her breast, just above the edge of her shirt.

“Did you get napkins?”she asked, as she lifted a finger to wipe away the spill. She dropped it as quickly. He smiled slightly. She never liked her hands to feel sticky, he knew.

“I’ll take care of it.” He waved a napkin at her, and stepped closer, but he didn’t use it. Instead, he ducked his head, and licked the melted ice cream away. Her skin was hot and a little tangy from sweat, and combined with the cool sweetness of the ice cream, it was enough to make him shudder.

“Heyy!” She giggled, and pushed him away. “We’re on a public sidewalk!”

“It’s ten AM, and there’s no one out. It’s too hot.” He kissed her cheek, oblivious to the melting ice cream that was splattering near them on the sidewalk. “You’re hot,” he whispered, not referring to temperature. “I love you.”

She tossed the remainder of the ice cream cone into the nearby trash bin, and laughed softly, as he claimed her sticky fingers with his mouth. “What’s got into you?” she asked.

“You. Us. This.” He kissed her mouth, softly, then more urgently, satisfied only when her answering kisses met his in intensity. “It’s a new life, love. A new start. Shouldn’t we start it right?” He paused, adding, “There’s a hotel across the street.”

She didn’t answer, not in words, but she kissed him, and squeezed his hand. “We’re not on a schedule,” she reminded, speaking the words for herself as well as for him. “We could spare a day.”

* * *

The hotel was a brand new Best Western, and the woman behind the counter was perky in the way that only brand new employees were. “Welcome to Needles.”

The woman with the pencil in her hair smiled, “My husband’s in the car. We drove from the bay area, yesterday, and I know it’s early for check-in, but we’d like a room. We have dogs.”

“It’s no problem,” the hotel-woman answered. “We’re pretty empty. Where you headed?”

“Texas. We’re moving there. My husband got transferred.”

“Aw, you’re gonna miss California.”

“Maybe…but this feels right.”

* * *

They brought their things, and their dogs, to the hotel room, using only minimal speech. The dogs curled up on one bed, tired from the heat, and confused by the series of new places.

They each took a moment to collect themselves, and then they came together, kissing again, touching each other with slow caresses, finding their rhythm quickly, in the way that only couples who’ve been together for years really can.

And then they slept, waking at dusk. She ordered delivery pizza while he walked the dogs. It arrived with two complimentary beers, and even though he didn’t drink, she cracked hers open, and sipped the cold foamy liquid.

They laughed at silly things while they ate. He teased her about sleeping through most of the journey. She said she wasn’t sleeping, that she was counting the cars on the trains they kept passing. She told him her childhood fantasies had included riding the rails like a hobo from a story.

“You don’t like to rough it,” he reminded her.

“It’s why I never tried it,” she confessed, laughing.

* * *
Later, after they’d made love a second time, she sat up in bed, awakened by the combination of moonlight and the buzzing of the traffic signal outside. She looked at her sleeping husband. She reached down and scratched behind the ears of one dog, then the other, and then she got up, and went to sit in the chair by the air conditioner.

He woke briefly, saw her sitting there, nude, in the moonlight. “Bad dream?” he asked.

“No.” She gave him a soft smile, knowing he’d catch the gesture even if he didn’t really see it. “Just too many thoughts.”

“Regrets?” he asked.

“Nope,” and she smiled again, and crossed the room to return to bed, to nestle against his shoulder. “Possibilities.”

No Need to Click Here – I’m just claiming my feed at Feedster

Sitting at my kitchen table tonight, sharing a cheese omelette with my husband, and watching the dogs as they valiantly begged for food (and received none), I noticed the way the light seemed to glow against the wood of the table, noticed the way the tile floor has become, not cold, but welcoming, restful.

We listened to A Prairie Home Companion, broadcasting from Duluth, MN, tonight, and I chuckled softly at the Guy Noir sketch, which included snippets of a tv-show called Lutheran Makeover (featuring clear nail polish, hand lotion, and chapstick).

Keillor’s show, tonight, was a gentle one, wistfully nostalgic, and even cozier than usual. It hit all the right notes for the first show after the Christmas season, and set a nice tone for the coming year.

As for my own coming year, I’m not sure what it will bring. I’m exploring new directions, and new options, and opening myself to ideas I’d previously dismissed as being irrelevant to my life.

For the moment, though, I can sit back, and sip my coffee, and smile into the cold night sky, for I have a lovely home, two cuddly dogs, and a husband who loves me, and puts up with me, and I am content.

I’m feeling listless and project-less now that Holidailies is over. Something about the accountability (slight as it was), helped me to write – and now I feel strongly that I have to write something every day, even if I’m not quite sure, right now, which direction I want to go.

But, anyway, I’ve added some new buttons, and moved stuff around on the sidebar. Tomorrow, I’ll be upgrading to MT 3.14…wish me luck on that one.

(And no, I still haven’t managed to take the tree down.)

Onesome: Fish- Do you have a favorite outdoor hobby or are you a strictly stay at home type?

I like gardening, and I like hanging around on beaches collecting shells, but we don’t live near one. As a kid I played softball, and roller skated outside a lot. And I really miss riding my bike, but I HATE bike helmets.

Twosome: Chips- Do you gamble? Lotto, weekly poker night or weekends in Vegas?

I live for poker.

Threesome: and mushy peas- What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

IF you define ‘strange’ as ‘exotic,’ then I guess sea urchin and beef tongue are up there. If you define it as ‘odd,’ then….I don’t really know…I like peanut butter and banana sandwiches. For that matter, I like tomato sandwiches (like in Harriet the Spy).